The waning afternoon
like a hand to a fist around my heart,
like I’m twelve and it’s the last
day of summer.
In Chinatown they’re pulling the heavy
shutters down over the storefronts
as a man plays a sad saxophone at the corner
of Sutter and Stockton,
his suitcase full of pennies.
The sun drifts away with no real
promise to return
as the big dumb hand of whatever
wipes us off the board, one by one,
leaving me clinging to the last scraps
of anything that might still pass for beauty,
like a man fishing cigarette stubs
from sidewalk cracks
with the light
and everything dying,
consumed with the fear
of it all leaving me, even
the ghosts.
