All This Bitch Crap Inside Of Me by Jonathan Beale

The strange reflections from the secret life of a small time blues singer

The bars mirrors show
This life destroying itself.
“ever thought of that?”
That muse “that bitch crap inside of me.”

“I light a cigarette, I pour a bourbon,
and tell tales, of lives, loves, and fuck – up’s.”
“And yep, some fuck – ups.”

“Some end is in sight
Some darkness is a kinda light
that just ain’t worth the fight?
That Just ain’t worth it.”

Angst is the true creative demon
The demon god
By ignoring him, he  drives you….
To that driest – compassionless of places.
The strange line dotted dappled white.

“Some end is in sight
Some darkness is a kinda light
that just ain’t worth the fight?
That Just ain’t worth it.”

Squealing demons that make
create and break my other
secret life. Washed away
Kick spewing up down in and out

Life’s words have an only
private reality –
meaning fails to offer
Anything back.

“Some end is in sight
Some darkness is a kinda light
that just ain’t worth the fight?
That Just ain’t worth it.”

The unreasonable mountain – you had to climb

The gauze drench mountain, quite blind.  Detached.
Veiled in earth and licked cloud;
Somehow designed by yourself for yourself

There is a dinosaur of your martyrdom
You made it a reality: a relevance
Your voice had to be heard, for its own sake.

The silent clocks ticking past
As the rest roll on through to their destination
Realising at the stroke of…, the lowest point.

The pay stops.  The open is window
The bridge between this world another -fails
Until the mountain fell into apathy

Jonathan Beale
Jonathan Beale has poems published in Penwood Review, Danse Macabre, Poetic Diversity, Down in the Dirt, Mad Swirl, Deadsnakes, Bitchin Kitsch, Pyrokinection, Ygdrasil, Van Gogh’s Ear, The Beatnik Cowboy, The Jawline Review, Bluepepper, Jellyfish Whispers, The Outsider, and Yellow Mama. His work has appeared in such books as ‘Drowning’ (Scar publications) and ‘The Poet as Sociopath’ (Scar publications). He is currently working on his second volume. His first collection of poetry ‘The Destinations of Raxiera’ is published by Hammer & Anvil. http://www.amazon.co.uk/Destinations-Raxiera-Jonathan-Beale-ebook/dp/B018F6GWQ6/ref=sr_1_1?s=digital-text&ie=UTF8&qid=1452199641&sr=1-1&keywords=jonathan+beale He studied philosophy at Birkbeck College London and lives in Surrey England.
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