The Second Time by James Babbs

the second time I came
it felt like
I was going to have a heart attack
I’m not as young
as I used to be and
it took me over thirty minutes
after my first orgasm
before I was able to
finally make it again
by then
I think she was getting
kind of bored with me
she’d come a few times and
I think she was enjoying herself
but she wasn’t nearly as enthusiastic
as she had been the first time
but it didn’t really bother me
in that particular moment
I was mostly thinking about myself
alright
I know how awful that sounds
but don’t get me wrong
okay
I don’t mean to say
I don’t care about her
because
for what it’s worth
I care about her a lot and
I can’t see myself
being with anybody else
hell
I probably love her
alright
I know I do
but I’m too afraid to say it
I’m afraid of a lot of things
I remember
she said it to me once
but then she got embarrassed and
didn’t wait for me to reply
when I got off of her
I watched her get up and
go into the bathroom
my heart was starting to calm down
when she came back to bed
I held the blankets for her
snuggling myself up against her
my arms automatically
finding her and
I thought about
how warm she felt
how comfortable it all was
holding on to her
before I closed my eyes

James Babbs-Author Photo
James Babbs is a writer, a dreamer, a three-time loser and an all-around nice guy who just wants to be left alone. James is the author of Disturbing The Light(2013) & The Weight of Invisible Things(2013) and has hundreds of poems and a few short stories scattered all over the internet.

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