you were our problem child, uneven, always ajar, snot-green
at night, lime skinned when the light shone through you,
your loops almost transparent until
the summer of endless irritations
we never discovered whether it was the rail
or the hoops that bound you, we never climbed
the ladder despite years of talking it through, never fixed
the tattered ends, pulled you down, or considered an alternative
On Hollywood Boulevard
There are cracks in the stars
Of people I don’t know
Piss on the ones I do
A mad woman with two teeth
Smears spaghetti on one
As protest
Ridicule
Or just cos she’s insane
On Hollywood Boulevard
The traffic just keeps coming
Young girls looking for Marilyn
Boys looking for James Dean
Where is the Hollywood sign?
They say
I thought it hung over everything
I thought it was visible at all times
This is Hollywood Boulevard isn’t it
They ask dismayed
Yes it is, I say
Yes it is.
On Hollywood Boulevard
The most intense rattle
I’ve yet known
All the glamour of vegetables
Rotting in summer heat
On Hollywood Boulevard
Endless stores
Selling cheap and tacky souvenirs
The ‘L.A’ logo on these t-shirts
Looks fake
One disgruntled English man says
Of course it’s fake, I say evenly
This is Hollywood Boulevard
“Gimme a cold beer!” he says
It’s what dreams are made of
if you live in a dry county
or have a failing liver
or are, like me,
a dry drunk
“A cold beer, please!”
Though what I’d really say is,
“2 shots Old Taylor,
2 High Lifes”
2 of each because
when you’re shaking that bad
you know 2 will get
knocked over
on the way
up.
I’m on the terrace of the CAB, Burgos Art Center
That looks at the Cathedral’ needles
And a raven appeared to me by chance
Giving a good peck
At the tip of the lover’ s bud
For having fallen asleep
At five in the afternoon
With a dream of Love hands off.
I was well asleep
When, upon awakening by the beak
I jerked him off
Revolting him self very confused and dazed.
I denied him
I swore to pluck the feathers
Whenever I can.
When I saw the Cathedral’s spiers
I found the hairpins that my mother used
To get rid of the worms in the ass
And I blessed her, kissing her a lot
For saving me from that itch
That I bore without meaning to.
My mother showed great feeling
Cursing the worms
Squashing these on a handkerchief.
In the Burgos Art Center
Tired of good books
And mousetrap exhibitions of pictures
In front of the door
On its label where we read CAB
Some rascals have put ahead an “A”
Remaining ACAB.
I baptized the raven
Putting to him the name of Poe
And announcing:
“Better is a crow on hands
That Poe following the crowd”.
Between ground beef and hamburger buns
around bowls of macaroni salad and lakes
lined with houses rich people own
and still rent to ghosts of the middle class
Woven into Stars and Stripes, like
a wick leading to fireworks on the 4th of July
It’s the hair in your slice of apple pie
Sewn into smallpox blankets to cover up
A thread that leads to an end tied around
the trigger of a gun
aimed directly
at ourselves
My life is a simple cross,
In a hug of despair.
I am the first waiter of duress –
Bartender in untender bar.
I come, mining into bliss-
A graffiti artist, a blackjack dealer, a stray dog,
In beauty entranced nights.
I am your one last story,
You can always have as much as you have,
Sprained emotions.
Eddie Awusi is a Nigerian writer of Isoko extraction. He graduated from the prestigious Delta state university, Abraka in 2007, where, he got a Bachelor of Arts degree in English and Literature. He has been published in Dissident Voice, The Australian Times, Tuck Magazine and other numerous magazines and anthologies. The pen and paper; are his playmates.